Rollercoaster...

Today was pretty much an emotional rollercoster for me. From hearing that I got my dream job to hearing that my friend gave birth and finally ending up having a good cry all alone…

I went to visit my friend in hospital today and she delivered a beautiful baby girl. So I went on into the nursery where we were able to see the child. She’s adorable!! There were new borns all around and I suddenly felt quite alone. Alone ‘cos there’s one more friend that’s going to be telling me about all the wonderful milestones in their childs life that I might not get to experience. One more friends list that I will be written out of. One more person to say “Don’t worry your time will come”…

Will this Emotional Hell ever come to an end? I feel so incompetent as a woman and so foolish for wanting something so bad. I have been trying so hard to just focus on the new endeavors ahead but I’m still finding myself worrying about Now and Why me! Why are we the ones that have to be infertile? We have 150 percent of love to offer, yet we are still empty!! Life can be so messed up sometimes! But I guess we are the stronger of our species and we gotta fight our way through, no matter what!